>> Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Let me hear Your loving kindness in the morning, for in You do I trust; teach me to know the way in which I should walk, for I lift up my soul to You. ~Psalm 143:8
It seems like just yesterday that he was baptized; a darling four-month-old with quite a set of lungs when jolted from a nap. Two Sundays ago, he experienced his first Holy Communion; a quiet and well-behaved eight-year-old boy who shyly sang with his peers, "Jesus! Jesus! Jesus in the morning, Jesus at the noon-time. Jesus! Jesus! Jesus when the sun goes down."
Yes, of course I cried. I cried at how quickly he had grown from an adventurous toddler to a sweet little boy. I cried with gratitude for the tender heart and affectionate soul that I always knew we shared. I cried at the sound of his quiet little voice whispering, "Amen", before he took the Body of Christ. I cried as I watched his little hand form the Sign of the Cross over his forehead and chest. And I cried when he turned around to find me, smiling proudly as he caught my eye, as if to let me know not to worry anymore because Jesus was with him.
In a troubled and quickly changing world, it's often difficult not to be cynical. It's hard to know who to trust or where to put your faith. Uncertainty can easily take over hope for the future, especially in a country divided. But as I watched my son smiling that day, I realized that there is no reason for uncertainty; there is no reason to search for someone to trust, a leader who can unite us all for the common good. He is already here, and He is all we really need.
The months preceding Dayton's First Communion were filled with games, lessons, and activities that helped explain the Holy Eucharist to 7 and 8 year olds. Ironically, though I tried my best to guide him along, it was he who led me back to Christ. The innocence of a quiet little boy, whose knowledge of the world did not extend past the narrow roads of our small town; who had no worries about anything else...because Jesus was with him.
So I think I'll follow my son's lead and try not to let the world overwhelm me. Because the Hope that I believe in has never changed, and I need not look further than my own heart to find Him.